Day 420...

Today is nearly Day 420 aka Monday, February 24th 2014. I took two days off Saturday & Sunday from any job stuff. I haven’t looked for work all weekend. But still I am still thinking about not working.

Just last night on very little sleep for two days straight I got all teary eyed and started to cry. I just couldn’t believe how close to February being over it is with me no job. I don’t think you get how positive I was I would have a job this month. Now I am looking at just 4 days left in this month. And I am NO closer to having a job now than I was at the end of January! That is just NOT COOL!

I’ve gotten to the point I am tired of begging God for a job. I mean come on. God knows I need a job. Why do I beg Him every night like this? And yet I do. Its on my mind all the time. Every day I don’t work is every day I get closer to forgetting what it is like.

For example. Legoland continues to mock me. As in they don’t reject me don’t email/call me. I have plenty of jobs I have applied with in the past few weeks not just LL. I applied to Homedepot, Old Navy, Target, Walmart. Tomorrow I plan to call back Old Navy, LL, and Homedepot. I got rejected by Target they aren’t hiring right now. I am unsure about Walmart. I was trying to be hopeful. Especially after last weeks goodness a week ago rejection from Petsmart once more.

The worst part about this is not knowing where to apply anymore. I really just don’t know where to apply. I keep applying when I can but still where do I apply? Its frustrating beyond a shadow of a doubt. I am going to apply to Dollar Tree I noticed they hiring Friday when I went to this job fair (more below). But still where else? So not doing anything for two days has been nice. Because honestly what else do I have to do with applying? SIGH.

To be brief as I just posted this in my job interview blog. On Friday I went to this job fair for this place called “Frazier Farms Market” it’s a health food store similar to our local Sprouts. I went down there at 10:40am it started at 9 till 3pm. It was going on Saturday too. It was tiring standing in this line in the bright hot sun for over an hour. Just to finally get up there sun tired and maybe burnt. To have them tell me they wont be opening till June yes JUNE and calling back till May. I need a job by April or sooner. Heck I needed a job in January. So I have no idea what will happen. With a chance for full time and benefits I really wanted this to work. Plus its only about 10 mint from home. Ugh.

That’s how my week is going. I am worren out from lack of sleep Friday and than lack of sleep on Saturday too. I just want to sleep forever. Tomorrow I might just. Not having a job looking is sometimes as tiring as working.

I miss working. I miss it every day every minute every second. I try to not miss it. I try to just enjoy the little things like watching tv, sleeping in, working out and reading books. But its just not easy. And 420 days of this is enough to drive a person insane. God please say I will have a job soon.

Till next day I feel like this…