Day 426

Sunday, March 2nd 2014 marks 426 days since I started looking for a job.

March don’t be mean don’t be evil. February was pure evil. I got two interviews and it was because I went to a job fairs. Not one person called for me to come in for an actual interview.

I had a major fit last night crying so hard I couldn’t see. I know that no sleep mixes badly and I spend part of it thinking God has forgotten me and doesn’t hear my prayers. Depression is easily brought about by too little sleep. Either way I couldn’t stop crying and finally calmed down. But still I don’t know what is going on.

I need a job in 29 days. Or I will be in more trouble than last month. I thought that my tax money was good enough to get me through rest of February and March and God would bless me with a job. So far what is going on? I am frustrated and stressed and depressed.

I did apply for a job yesterday with another B&N. I don’t know why I give them my time at all. I swear my former manager who held some horrible grudge over me since knowing what she did last year is keeping me from ever being called again. By ANY store. I cant explain why else none call me back.

Tomorrow, Monday I call back Petsmart. The same one I went to in January the manager loved me but couldn’t take me on. I called two weeks ago and was told in two weeks he should be back. I will call tomorrow to check. I guess it cant hurt to check back exactly two weeks. Hope he is back or wait.

God please I need a job. I am beyond the point of needing one. This is just so wrong. That I lost out of on so many key times for jobs: Spring, Summer and Winter. And now again heading back towards Spring with no leads at all. Please keep me in prayers. I don’t know what else to do. I feel like I am losing my mind.